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Sometimes you give and give and give and they're all too glad to take. But when you need something, even the littlest thing, they will never return the favor. Yet, you keep helping. Everyone around you tells you to give up, you deserve better, she doesn't want help, why keep trying? For some reason I can't. I know I'm being used. I know I should never expect anything back. But I just keep giving; heart, mind and soul. So many tears, so many fears. Fears that she'll get hurt, both emotionally and physically, and fears that she'll lead a terrible life full of bad characters and bad decisions. I was supposed to get her out of that life. That's really all she ever wanted from me, but I failed. Now I'm trying my best to make up for my failure, but she won't let me. She wants to make bad decisions. She wants to keep people in her life that are bad for her. I try and I try and I give and I give. I get nothing for it. Not even the satisfaction of making a difference. Not even any friendship in return. I'm just there to be used as needed. Yet, for some reason beyond all reason and stupidity and hopelessness, I always will be.